What we don’t talk about after suicide attempts

There are some things people don’t often talk about after a suicide attempt. After my first attempt, the main question no one could give me an answer for was ‘how do I live with myself as depressed as I am, knowing that I tried to kill myself and had no regrets, when I still feel…More

Father’s Day

The last time I saw my father for Father’s Day he was at the bar. That was the place to find him. I didn’t like going in there, but I went in to say Happy Father’s Day. I don’t remember his reaction or what I did after. In a way, I never really felt like…More

One year alive

Today marks a year since I tried to die. It’s sunny and hot, which I appreciate after all the rain. I saw a crow taking a bath in some of the water left from the rain on a roof. I had a nice cold decaf coffee after work. Did some studying, did some knitting, had…More

Two suicide attampts later… I am happy

CONTENT WARNING: suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, overdoses, hallucinations International list of suicide helplines here. The following is based on journal entries I wrote over the past 16 months and it is centred around two suicide attempts. Please don’t read if you think this will be upsetting or triggering for you.More